So since I last posted, I've graduated, turned 33, had a really awful tooth infection, and wondered what the hell I'm doing with my life.
I had an amazing visit with my family, and I've decided to not pay my cell phone bill and start over with a new number, maybe.
I want to vanish. To start a whole new life. I'm just not sure how to do it...
Sunday, May 30, 2010
Thursday, May 13, 2010
Wowzers!
So as of this morning I have officially completed all of my undergraduate work at UC Berkeley. I still have the dreadful business of coming up with the money to buy my degree and transcripts from them, but at least I know that I've done all the work they required of me and I'm done.
Plus, Dasan is enrolled for the Junior National Young Leaders Conference! We raised enough money to get him signed up and have a payment plan for the rest.
Now what...? Find a job. Study for the LSAT. Hope that Boalt will let me in next year so that I can get some more Berkeley lovin'.
Plus, Dasan is enrolled for the Junior National Young Leaders Conference! We raised enough money to get him signed up and have a payment plan for the rest.
Now what...? Find a job. Study for the LSAT. Hope that Boalt will let me in next year so that I can get some more Berkeley lovin'.
Saturday, May 8, 2010
Procrastination
I've been watching the fishing shows on the discovery channel lately. I hate fishing, but I sort of feel like I am getting to know my dad a little by watching it. My mom watches sometimes and when I've seen her watching she looks so distant and sad. I don't know why I do this to myself, but lately, maybe because I'm about to graduate, I just sort of wish that I'd had a dad...
That mean ugly ocean is so amazing to me. And they really aren't kidding around when they say how dangerous it is. Those kids really are risking their lives every day they are out there so that you can have some fish sticks and sushi or whatever. Breaks my heart.
I have finals still. I have been putting off my last paper. I have to do it tomorrow. I had the worst job interview ever today. Dasan still needs about $1250 to register for DC. It's rough kids. Help if you can.
That mean ugly ocean is so amazing to me. And they really aren't kidding around when they say how dangerous it is. Those kids really are risking their lives every day they are out there so that you can have some fish sticks and sushi or whatever. Breaks my heart.
I have finals still. I have been putting off my last paper. I have to do it tomorrow. I had the worst job interview ever today. Dasan still needs about $1250 to register for DC. It's rough kids. Help if you can.
Thursday, May 6, 2010
Yo-yo
Up and down my kiddies, that is the life of me.
This morning I got the bad news that Dasan will not be getting the scholarship for the DC program. This is sad news. We are in push mode now. We need an additional $2000 in one week. Deadline to register is May 13th. Please, anything helps.
visit his facebook page
And if you can, donate!
This morning I got the bad news that Dasan will not be getting the scholarship for the DC program. This is sad news. We are in push mode now. We need an additional $2000 in one week. Deadline to register is May 13th. Please, anything helps.
visit his facebook page
And if you can, donate!
Just keep swimming...
I had another phone interview this evening (well, I suppose since it's past midnight I can say that it was yesterday.) It's a very small independently owned company in Oakland. I have an in person interview on Saturday where he will likely test my ability to perform like a chimp some basic office tasks (remind me to brush up on my excel skills) and there may very well be math involved and that would be all bad. I'm hoping my charm and stellar ability to BS my way through life will pay off. Trouble is, my professional wardrobe is much smaller than my body these days. So I must hit up the goodwill for something that hides my tattoos.
This phone interview went WAY better than the last one. This time I was totally prepared. It's hard when you are applying to at least 5 places a day to keep them all in order. I have been very careful about making sure I know exactly where I've been sending my resume though, and when he called I was totally ready and very confident.
I am still trying to catch up on the last couple of weeks of reading for my last final and I have to start my last paper for my other class. I also have to prep and send out my graduation announcements, and all the while we are still waiting to find out about whether or not Dasan will receive the scholarship for the DC program. If not, we are in big trouble. The deadline to register is May 14th. That's a lot of money to raise while all this other stuff is going on.
One day this will all pay off. All of this struggle and stress will seem worth it. Right now it's just a chore to try to remember to breathe.
This phone interview went WAY better than the last one. This time I was totally prepared. It's hard when you are applying to at least 5 places a day to keep them all in order. I have been very careful about making sure I know exactly where I've been sending my resume though, and when he called I was totally ready and very confident.
I am still trying to catch up on the last couple of weeks of reading for my last final and I have to start my last paper for my other class. I also have to prep and send out my graduation announcements, and all the while we are still waiting to find out about whether or not Dasan will receive the scholarship for the DC program. If not, we are in big trouble. The deadline to register is May 14th. That's a lot of money to raise while all this other stuff is going on.
One day this will all pay off. All of this struggle and stress will seem worth it. Right now it's just a chore to try to remember to breathe.
Sunday, May 2, 2010
Vacant
Nothing is really working right now. I'm out of my head. Not in a dangerous way, more like I'm trying to imagine a kind of life that doesn't involve so much pain. I'm floating a little.
The boy is at the beach in Santa Cruz all day today and I am left here to think about things. I will do laundry and read and study a little. And nap of course, because napping is really important.
That said, I graduate soon. I have one more paper and one more final and that's it. I bought myself a silly square hat and I will wear it on the 21st.
Crazy.
The boy is at the beach in Santa Cruz all day today and I am left here to think about things. I will do laundry and read and study a little. And nap of course, because napping is really important.
That said, I graduate soon. I have one more paper and one more final and that's it. I bought myself a silly square hat and I will wear it on the 21st.
Crazy.
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