Procrastination

I've been watching the fishing shows on the discovery channel lately. I hate fishing, but I sort of feel like I am getting to know my dad a little by watching it. My mom watches sometimes and when I've seen her watching she looks so distant and sad. I don't know why I do this to myself, but lately, maybe because I'm about to graduate, I just sort of wish that I'd had a dad...

That mean ugly ocean is so amazing to me. And they really aren't kidding around when they say how dangerous it is. Those kids really are risking their lives every day they are out there so that you can have some fish sticks and sushi or whatever. Breaks my heart.


I have finals still. I have been putting off my last paper. I have to do it tomorrow. I had the worst job interview ever today. Dasan still needs about $1250 to register for DC. It's rough kids. Help if you can.

Yo-yo

Up and down my kiddies, that is the life of me.

This morning I got the bad news that Dasan will not be getting the scholarship for the DC program. This is sad news. We are in push mode now. We need an additional $2000 in one week. Deadline to register is May 13th. Please, anything helps.

visit his facebook page

And if you can, donate!

Just keep swimming...

I had another phone interview this evening (well, I suppose since it's past midnight I can say that it was yesterday.) It's a very small independently owned company in Oakland. I have an in person interview on Saturday where he will likely test my ability to perform like a chimp some basic office tasks (remind me to brush up on my excel skills) and there may very well be math involved and that would be all bad. I'm hoping my charm and stellar ability to BS my way through life will pay off. Trouble is, my professional wardrobe is much smaller than my body these days. So I must hit up the goodwill for something that hides my tattoos.

This phone interview went WAY better than the last one. This time I was totally prepared. It's hard when you are applying to at least 5 places a day to keep them all in order. I have been very careful about making sure I know exactly where I've been sending my resume though, and when he called I was totally ready and very confident.

I am still trying to catch up on the last couple of weeks of reading for my last final and I have to start my last paper for my other class. I also have to prep and send out my graduation announcements, and all the while we are still waiting to find out about whether or not Dasan will receive the scholarship for the DC program. If not, we are in big trouble. The deadline to register is May 14th. That's a lot of money to raise while all this other stuff is going on.

One day this will all pay off. All of this struggle and stress will seem worth it. Right now it's just a chore to try to remember to breathe.

Vacant

Nothing is really working right now. I'm out of my head. Not in a dangerous way, more like I'm trying to imagine a kind of life that doesn't involve so much pain. I'm floating a little.


The boy is at the beach in Santa Cruz all day today and I am left here to think about things. I will do laundry and read and study a little. And nap of course, because napping is really important.


That said, I graduate soon. I have one more paper and one more final and that's it. I bought myself a silly square hat and I will wear it on the 21st.

Crazy.

I should be reading.

Obviously, I am not. Dasan submitted his application for the scholarship to the Junior National Young Leaders Conference. We find out in two weeks. In the meantime, we have raised enough money for the plane ticket, but we still need so much more to actually get him there. Even if he receives the full scholarship amount he will need to get a week's worth of "business casual" attire in order to attend the conference. Ripped jeans and skate shoes full of holes are against the dress code. For real. These kids have a strict dress code.


In other news, I sent a nasty email to the company that runs the Walk Through the American Revolution presentation that happened at Dasan's school, and he talked to his teacher about it.

Slavery and genocide are not a "bummer." They are very serious and horrific events in the history of this country and should not be made light of. If you want to write to them as well, there is a comments section on their website at California Weekly Explorer, Inc.


And last, but not least, if you can... Donate! Dasan needs all the help he can get :)

Today was a pretty good day :)

So first off, thank you to anyone and everyone that has donated to Dasan's "get to DC" fund! He has almost $500 of the $3000 that he needs! For just 2 days, that's amazing... but we need to register as soon as possible so that space doesn't run out. So if you can, visit his facebook page and donate! And tell all your friends ;)

In other news... I had a phone interview today with the very lovely lady in HR at the Lawrence Berkeley Lab. I was so nervous it's kind of ridiculous. Keep your fingers crossed though! I'm waiting to hear back to see if they will be calling me in for an interview with the department heads. I SO want this.

Also this morning Dasan was Thomas Jefferson in some kind of interactive history lesson/play at his school. It was LONG, but totally adorable. Though I must say I'm more than a little irritated that it was all about the original 13 colonies and there was nothing more than a collective "oh bummer" about both slavery and the genocide of Native Americans. I'm going to send that program a little something something because they literally just said "oh bummer" about it. Not cool.

Ok... back to work. I've got stuff to read and finals to study for. Oh, and a paper to write. Ugh.

It's raining... but the future is bright as hell :)

My amazing son has been nominated to take part in this summer's Junior National Young Leaders Conference in Washington DC!

The problem...?? We can't afford it. So we are fund raising. Starting now! The sooner the better, because even though the event is only open to nominated children, it is also first come first serve, and we just don't have any money. So if you can, help get my amazing kid to this amazing event!

Here is a link to a facebook page, that includes in the info section, a link to donate.
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You won't regret it.